praise the lord this is over

a whole month without the internet it drove my nuts

no library's online,
no forums to visit,
no google to hate,
no porn for free,
no art to download,
no chance to look in to my old accounts,

all the gossip i was missing.

so thank god iam back on line.

now in my own crib halleluja! i finnaly made it past the bureaucrats (i hope) its just criminal how much influence those bastards have on our lives and how much it cost to get this far iam independant but broke!

but my fridge is full,
my clothes are clean,
i got power water and heating,
and still my job,
so ill manage cope and endure.

my new crib is definatly an inprovement,
my homecooking progresses (only two failures this last week),
and nobody to tell my what to do and to clean up after myself.

on the downside i miss my ma's cooking,
having more cash to spend and more time to spend om my hobbys,
i hate my job even more not having sombody to complain about it when i get home and my comuter time is still the same five lousy kilometers and it still takes half a hour! becaus of the heavy traffic on the new route!.

but wel you cant have it all i guess.

i live in a rundown neighbourhood,
my nextdoors are eithe illegal foreighners unenployed or criminal,
so i can do almost everything i want without anybody noticing or caring,
and if you dont mind the noise and lack of scenery and outdoor splendor its heaven (if you got three locks on each door, live on a high enough floor, carry a conceald weapon all the time, and sleep with a gun under your pillow) but hey i knew it wouldntbe easy.

if you got a handicap like my (cripple, spastic and nearsighted) you learn to cope and iam not even rascist, overzealous lawabiding and superclean citizen myself iam underpayed and all such so it could have been worst i could have ended up in a institution i even had to apply for it if you believe that! instead i got more freedom than i ever had and my ow kitchen and i lost 24 kilo's the last five months so it is all good!.

well that is maby a littl bit besides the truth but i pretty stoked and pleased with myself right now te money cold be better but hey i got internet again so iam setteling in finaly i paid off my biggest bills and dont have the flue yet (half of my co-workers do) so iam smiling.

now its back to finding my own routine again and writing my shit again i got my inspiration back and am busy beating my writersblock yeah!

so greetings to you all and iam back for good (untill the mony realy runs out) Meanmann luves you all eccept my provider a whole month offline i want compensation)but my family and friends who supported my thanks!.

iam back halleluja!.